Wednesday, January 05, 2011
All is quiet in the house this evening. The kids are sleeping, my wife is sleeping and I have 1 hour and 15 minutes before I turn 40 years old. I am feeling reflective. Wow. Just looking at that number 40 shocks me. 40 years old. I don't feel 40, but what is 40 supposed to feel like? Old? I don't feel old. I feel more alive than I have ever felt in my life. I feel younger at 40 then I did at 30. My body probably wouldn't agree. My back hurts more often. My hair is going gray and what isn't going gray is just plain going. My mind goes in one direction and my body is seemingly three steps behind.
But the inner man is alive. The more years I live, the more sin I commit, the more "there is no condemnation in Christ Jesus" means to me. I love grace and mercy more. I am more thankful. The more I live, the more I experience, the more I understand, the more I know, the more I am humbled by what I don't know. God becomes more mysterious and yet clearer.
I am turning 40 tomorrow. And I hope that if more years shall be given me, I can say at 50 and 60 and 70 what Paul writes in 2 Corinthians 4:16 So I do not lose heart. Though my outer self is wasting away, my inner self is being renewed day by day.
I was intimidated by 40 this year. And now I welcome it, I think.
May it be true of us all that as the years increase and our bodies decline, may our spirits by the Spirit continue to blossom unto the full bloom of eternity.
Posted by Steve at 10:44 PM